I have been awake for almost 4 days straight. my mind cannot stop. thankfully little man is sleeping for longer periods of time, so i can do laundry, clean up, wash bottles etc. I still have to go into storage and clean everything out. Hopefully I won’t be at my parents house for much longer.. I can’t deal with all of the unfair treatment. Just because they don’t agree with my relationship. Yes Aaron and I fight, but all married couples do. We are both under a lot of stress right now while we are not living together. I take care of Alex for the most part. Don’t get me wrong, I love him more than anything in this world, but it is very hard to do by yourself. We’ve gotten into a pretty decent routine which is great. Later today I need his crib to be set up.. I’ve been spoiling him with letting him sleep next to me in bed.. not on a pillow or anything just on his back with a light blanket and his giraffe Henry. I feel like I’ve been on an emotional rollercoaster for at least 2 months now. Getting evicted from our apartment, moving my 3 week old to a new house, dealing with living with my parents again, being apart from Aaron for so long.. It is causing so many unneccesary fights. I’m stressed so I tend to take things a little too seriously, I’m sleep deprived, my medicines are all changing.. all excuses but they all go into the reason why I’ve been so easy to pick fights. I completely understand he is stressed out as well so I feel bad for fighting with him so often.. We both have our issues we are going to work on and then we will go from there..
Good news.. Alex is already 10lbs! Which is great considering how tiny he was. Anothe good thing, his appointment at Dartmouth went well, the scan did not show any type of reflux and so far they didn’t see any scarring on his kidneys. We have to return when he is six months old to do a repeat ultrasound and talk about getting him circumsized. I hate that it has to be a surgery but I also don’t want the surgery to be traumatic for him because at that point he will probably remember it if it was done without him being put to sleep.
It’s 2am and I can not stop watching Dexter. I just started yesterday sometime and I’m already on Season 3 haha Next is rewatching Entourage.. big plans ha
